i just need to calm down a bit,,

indeed, I am in dire need of tranquility myself for now, tonight I can not sleep, I seem to have insomnia.
I do not know, I'm back thinking about him, and make my heart was not calm.
I should be able to use this insomnia to do positive things, like working on my final project which in fact has not been finished. Today is chinese new year, but it wasn't too caught my attention. And as usual, I'm back doing stupid things, you know what? yes, I left a comment on a blog that he created. Blog it is outdated, I guess he never opened his blog since the last post he made
I don't know what made me did stupid things like that
I want to know too much about him, and because not many things I can get about it. it makes me a little bit crazy ......... and O my God .. I looks like obsessed with him....So embarrassing
you know? sometimes I wish had owned doraemon 'pintu kemana saja'. hmmmm..
I just wanted to see him sleeping tonight and say 'good night, have a sleep tight'. No matter he doesn't hear me.
Because you know what? when I saw him, whether he knows it or not. It has made me happy.
One of my friends knew of it, he even said "you don't need to talk to him, or near him, only met up with him, ur face turned into a happy face. I can see clearly that on ur face" I realize, now, I'm a woman that sucks!! and I now began to understand why VJ hates me?? ..
it was because I had no self-esteem, chasing him .. you know? like a 'chit'.
The main point is : .....I'll stop, stop loving, stop being crazy and back to a normal life.I have a life, n i need to continue my life, instead of spending my time wasted like this.
Come on, conscious. Do not let you be blinded by your ego>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Chiayoooooooooo!