Insomnia again.... so im watching football

I can't sleep tonight,again.....
I don't know....hmmmm I think my insomnia get worse.
I usually don't stay up until 4 o'clock dawn ....this is become bad habits for me.
Today I'm actually trying to find a vendor selling goods, newcastle stuff especially, unfortunately I can't find the shop :( .
What do you think about give something to him when parting later???hmmmmmmm...............it's still in the planning of course...
in the next, I don't want I'll even worsen our relation.
Okey,maybe this is a bad idea, so I would think twice about it, besides I can't find who the seller. hehehehehehehe
Now,i'm gonna tell u my other story...let's see
Yesterday I met with the RP, you know? I'm increasingly convinced that he was a good man, and sweet man of course
After I refused yesterday, he still offered to drive me home.....good man , isn't he??
On the way home, we talked and joked.He's so funny and not boring.I wish I could like him, I just want to be like the guy who likes me. You know??I'm tired of having unrequited love, it was so painful.
I also met yesterday with the ER, he remains a good guy, he cares....
But for now, I can't came back for him...
If my feeling still like this, I'm afraid of hurting ER again. I want to completely cleanse VJ of my mind. And then going to start a new relation with another man (either ER or RP or the other man)